July 15, 2008
things
Travel is approaching, could be a month could be three. The wait is starting to get to me. I’m going to start packing. Last night I let the kids pick out some outfits for Henry. I got updated pictures of my littlest man, he looks miserable. His sn is a skin condition and he is not happy in the heat. He has a birthday this month, he’s going to be 1. When I travel this time I will be taking either my sister or my dad. Bunny is starting a new school so she can’t come. Leaving her behind is going to be hard. My sweet hubby will be holding down the homefront. I wish he could come. that’s one of the sucky parts of working together can’t be gone at the same time. I’m not worried about the boys because they will be surrounded by family and I will talk to them on the phone everyday. There is one little person who I am having a very hard time deciding whether or not to take or leave at home. My Delie. It is such an upsetting thought that I am actually crying while I write this. If I take her she’ll miss her home, her daddy, her ruh-ruh (bunny) and her boys. If I leave her she’ll only miss me. My heart is breaking. I was also hoping that if she went maybe I could take her back to her orphanage so all the nannies could see her. I was so rushed when we were there that I did not get to talk to any of them and I did not take enough pictures. I have so much for the boys but hardly anything for for Delila. I would love to make it up to her. What would you do?
